You're used to women rejecting you. You don't even question it anymore. Why would you? Your life is meant to be rejected by women. You've know for a long time that your life was going to be full of rejection by women. Rejection for jobs, for dates, attention on apps and websites -- you are a reject. You're starting to accept it your fate. That's where you differ from other losers. There is not real chance at you thinking you will have a chance. Why would you risk rejection? You don't. Why would you want to rejected by women time and time again when you could live life knowing that you don't stand a chance. You will probably marry some Plain Jane (if you haven't already) who doesn't know that she deserves better than you yet and you'll still want more. You desire a woman who is going to tell you to your face just how much of a loser you are. You continue to masturbate to the realization that you are a life-long loser.